Desperately Seeking Something

Personal quests, with a decidedly bizarre twist.

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My Strange Adventure With the Devoted Followers of Dr. Lovewisdom

I always thought my mother's spiritual seeking was silly. So I almost couldn't believe it when a wacky new age community helped me cope with her death.

Inside the Secret Society That Inspired the New Age Movement

Blending meditation and astrology with Saturn worship and “sex magic,” they survived the Nazis and remain one of the world’s most mysterious sects.

My Teenage Life After Leaving a Cult

I spent my childhood waiting for the apocalypse. When it never came, I grasped at anything I could to feel in control, from binge drinking to suicide.

I Grew Up In a Fundamentalist Cult  Like the One in  “The Handmaid’s Tale”

Don’t think Margaret Atwood’s dystopian vision is realistic? I was raised in a conservative Christian cult where women were viewed as submissive birthing vessels.

Meet the Modern-Day Pagans Who Celebrate the Ancient Gods

Deep in the woods of the Pacific Northwest, a community of Druids is reviving Celtic rites. They might seem hokey or outlandish, but maybe, just maybe, they’re the ones who have it all figured out.


Getting High on Cactus and Chasing Away Evil with the Shamans of the Black Lagoon

What’s a Nice Jewish Boy Like You Doing at a Mosque Like This?

Inside the life of a Jewish Sufi.

I Was a Hard-Nosed Amateur Boxer. Now I’m a Buddhist Monk.

How finding my footing in the ring led me down the path to Zen.

The Sisters Who Spoke to Spirits

After an encounter in their bedroom, two women found fame helping nineteenth-century mourners speak to their dead. The religion they inspired lives on to this day.